Because I Can..

Today's the day I cried the most, but I'm done.

I let what people think of me affect me for the last time. My life is mine. I've messed up, made mistakes, and done a lot of things I wish I could take back. But that doesn't stop me from living my life as trying to be a better person the next day. I want to be the best I can be. And so I'm done with the headaches, with the stress, with the worrying, and with the weight loss over what one person thinks about me. There are a good 9.6 billion more people out there and I sure don't feel the need to impress just one. If you don't like me, fine, that's your problem I wasn't put on this earth to please any man, I'm here to please God. My past depended on my choices, my present state is determined by myself, and I'm the one who's in control of my future.

So all you think what you want, or you can ask me and get the truth, but keep my name out of your mouth if you don't know what you are talking about. I'm not into small town hick gossip and when I left the high school I figured it'd stop. It's sad when you ain't got nothing else better in your life than to try to ruin mine by spreading lies.

Redneck rant done. My life is mine. Thank y'all.

Now I got a job interview to get ready for. Wish me luck.

Love,
ME

Just Take A Breath

When you care so much for so long you only to not feel it in return you become numb and you start to not care anymore either... So when he told me to met him after church and not go to his house I wasn't stupid I knew what was up. And it made me sad for a little while.. I knew my end of the relationship wasn't close to perfect but neither was his. So when he got in my car I let him have his spill of excuses I let him think he was just rping right into my heart, he did, then I stopped and looked and thought this is an opportunity to find love for real I know I loved Landyn but it really wasn't moving anywhere we were simply two incompatible people trying to stick it out and all that does is cause ill feelings toward each other because we could never fully give the other one what was necessary for a healthy relationship. So that's that and I realize it. I'm not sad or heartbroken it hurt and I cried but crying wasn't going to fix all the problems we had and isn't going to bring us back together. I'm happy and I'm back to being myself, I'm tired of everyone telling me they're worried about me and that I'm not being myself so that's gone and I will never throw out family and friend insights or give up my friends for a guy. It's not worth it and if they can't love my friends and family and respect what they have to say too then they really aren't worth my time.

Being happy is my main priority, that and this ridiculous semester I'm about to endure. So here's to a happy single Mychal. I'm going to love every minute of everyday from here on out!! You only live once but if you do it right once is enough