When you care so much for so long you only to not feel it in return you become numb and you start to not care anymore either... So when he told me to met him after church and not go to his house I wasn't stupid I knew what was up. And it made me sad for a little while.. I knew my end of the relationship wasn't close to perfect but neither was his. So when he got in my car I let him have his spill of excuses I let him think he was just rping right into my heart, he did, then I stopped and looked and thought this is an opportunity to find love for real I know I loved Landyn but it really wasn't moving anywhere we were simply two incompatible people trying to stick it out and all that does is cause ill feelings toward each other because we could never fully give the other one what was necessary for a healthy relationship. So that's that and I realize it. I'm not sad or heartbroken it hurt and I cried but crying wasn't going to fix all the problems we had and isn't going to bring us back together. I'm happy and I'm back to being myself, I'm tired of everyone telling me they're worried about me and that I'm not being myself so that's gone and I will never throw out family and friend insights or give up my friends for a guy. It's not worth it and if they can't love my friends and family and respect what they have to say too then they really aren't worth my time.
Being happy is my main priority, that and this ridiculous semester I'm about to endure. So here's to a happy single Mychal. I'm going to love every minute of everyday from here on out!! You only live once but if you do it right once is enough
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